Friends

An old friend found me on facebook today. I haven't seen her in 15 or 16 years. Which means the last time I saw her I was 7 or 8. I know that is kind of young, and it shouldn't be a big deal but it is. I had some great friends before I moved. That is definitely one thing I miss about New York is the friends I left.

Its funny the phases we go through with friends... or maybe its just me. I had probably four really good friends in New York before we moved. Then it wasnt until middle school until I made another good friend.... then another... and another... and then before long, I had another little group of four really good friends all the way through high school. Everyone knows that friendships fade sometimes, especially after graduation because people move away and go to college. I only keep in touch with two of those high school friends anymore, and even that is once in a blue moon. The funny thing is, my best guy friend, I could call him up for help or advice anytime, and even though we don't talk as often anymore he still knows me. Very well. Its shocking sometimes.

Is there a limit to how many good friends you get? I know thats a silly question. I feel like I've been so fortunate, being blessed with good friends so early in life. Now, 6 years after graduation, I miss those friendships that made me feel so blessed. I have friends now, and yes, they are great. I LOVE them. But most of them I got to know better through my husband, and I can't help but wonder if anything ever happended to us, heaven forbid, they may not speak to me again. Long story short: they are his friends. They come around and visit him. My husband thinks I'm being overanalyzing things and being too negative. I guess to a point he is right.

Still, I believe a woman should be able to have her friends, he should have his friends, and then there are 'our' friends.

Easier said than done. That wasn't very positive, was it? Oh well... I'll sleep on it.