You're Beautiful

I feel great. I mean, I feel wonderful. I don't remember the last time I've been in such a good mood for such a long period of time. I'm sure I have felt this way before.... but you'll have to watch a replay of my life to figure out when. And when you do, please let me know. I'm clueless.

Anyhoo. Why do I feel great? I realized fairly (but not really because obviously my computer has diarhhea and I can't blog as often as I want... :( ... ) recently that I am not the same person I was several years ago. Physically, yes, of course, but as far as my personality I had changed somehow and somewhere over the years. I had adapted some of Mr.'s personality traits. He's wonderfully honest but when he doesn't care, he REALLY doesn't care and will let it be known. Anyway.... I guess I've become kind of cranky... or bitchy.... whichever you prefer. I used to be more silly and I have hidden that part of me because of the way certain people respond to me being silly. Now, I have other certain people in my life that LOVE the silly part of me, they embrace it and encourage me to be myself. ...you know who you are. Thank you!

So.....Besides the fact that I'm being myself more, for the first time in YEARS ... I feel attractive. I've had major self-esteem issues since puberty. What girl doesn't? Especially in this society.... but I'm not sure what has caused it exactly.... but I truly feel like running up and down the street singing "I Feel Pretty, Oh, So Pretty!" But that would be cocky, and I'm not cocky so I won't. And I might. If I feel like it. Why not? Why not let the world know you don't have to be a size 6 to feel beautiful?

Something else that's funny lately.... I've lost a couple pounds. All of the above may or may not be related to this. I don't know. I've not done anything differently.. that I can think of anyway. However, when people started asking me if I've lost weight instead of asking when I'm due.... then I started to wonder. Soooo, I weighed myself, and lo and behold I have lost like almost ten pounds. Cool. You would think I would have noticed in my clothes... but come to think of it I did go up a notch in my belt on Halloween. Whichever. Like I said, I feel great. And that's what is important, right?

Remind me to tell you about all of the funny, silly things that have popped up in my head recently. It's weird. And kooky. And that's the way I like it! But that's a blog for another day (someday soon, I hope.)

@-->--- A rose for all of the beautiful people out there who are not recognized, but deserve it!

I don't get it...but then again, maybe it is better that I don't...

Perhaps it is a blessing that my car will not crank right now. Why? Now I dont have to worry about driving all over town looking for a station that actually has any gas, and then once I get there I dont have to worry about sitting in line for an hour to get it. While everyone else at work is panicking about gas I have no worries. I smile secretly to myself as I listen to the battle stories of thers who have tried to fill their tanks.

Yes, I live in that little part of the world where everyone freaked out and caused all the pumps to run dry. Not being born in the south, myself, while it is beautiful here and the people are friendly; sometimes I shake myself and sigh, amazed and puzzled by this behavior at the same time.

Let me give you an example. My freshman year, I believe it was, it was about 9 am and flurries had just started to fall from the sky. By 9:30 everyone was back on their respective buses and on their way back home. By 11 the flurries had stopped and by 3 in the afternoon you would never have known that we had any precipitation that day whatsoever. So the last time I went to visit friends and family in the north this was their reply:

"I can understand that, because you don't have any snow plows in the south, do you?"

"Yes we do. Several actually."

"Oh. But you don't salt the roads like we do here."

"Oh yes, we salt the roads. Perhaps not as often as you do, but more than enough for the amount of frozen precipitation that we actually do get"

"Oh." ...silence... "Well, I am sure that not many people have experience driving in snowy conditions"

"Yes, that is true. However if we ever got any snow I am sure they would have the chance to get that experience."

...And so it goes something like that. Maybe I am too cynical. Maybe I am just honest (thats what I think). Either way, I am the type of person that is really calm and laid back most of the time. It really takes a lot to get me worked up, and I really see no point in people running around worried about little things all the time. See, I am misunderstood A LOT, and maybe you can help me with that.. but thats a blog for another day.

People are just loverly! Well.. some are...

I love rainbows. I love looking up in the sky after a rainy day ro see a nice, big, beautiful ray of hope sent down from above.

I saw my nice, big, beautiful rainbow today. Not in the literal sense of the word, but figuratively. Its all the same to me, though. It has the same effect. My heart swells in my chest and I grin from ear to ear like a great big goofy jack-o-lantern.

It is the little things, truly that have the greatest effect. The simplest things a person can do or say to change your day for the better....and it comes from the most unexpected people sometimes.

*sappy moment over*